Wow there's so much that has gone on in my life. I will begin a bit later, but post will be more frequent.

Today I will start a workout plan. All I need is the motivation. I once had it just wondering where it went. Since no more p.e. classes I need do this on my own. Hopefully help me cut down on my smoking also. Remember it's your priority!!

wholly it's like 2010

I look at this wow, my life has changed so much but I still have that same wander. I haven't sparked myself, I'm still asking some of the same questions. My experience in the lat 4 years have been cool. I'm gay and proud!!

Inner suffocation

I have an addiction that once allowed me to be function but now I've seemed to let it take over and I'm just stuck. Well i don't have enough will power. I'm smart, beautiful, wise, and care. This is what I give to society but to myself, I give death. I feel suffocated and I'm not sure who of my friends I can talk to. I mean any of them would love for me to talk to them instead of having my silence. I gab on everything else except what I hold in a prism or some of my true beliefs.

I'm not going full blown which I've never have but I'm not even at 60%. I smoke pot way to much and eat lots of food while becoming very anti-social. It's okay to not spend b/c ur broke but your ridiculous either way. School I haven't gone a sober day I think. ANd I'm doing pretty good but what if I wasn't smoking, how well might I be doing?