Burn!

I'm angry! Last year about this time my fire was smoldering out and some how I kept it alive. Right now I'm burning furiously. I've never let this fire consume me but I think it's time. SO much in my life hasn't gotten done. I've been wasting away not really living well my last couple of years have felt like that. Maybe, I'm all crazy and looking back and forward now, is because my 23rd birthday is next week. I'm finally getting into the community, volunteering my time and just talking with folks.
I feel y friends aren't really who I thought they were, our connection is through drugs. I don't I can trust them anymore, I'm being shattered again. Don't get me wrong I have great friends but none of them have the same interest of me except Marijuana. I get laughed at and mocked, they don't get where I'm coming from, what I think I should be and how come I'm not there. That my shoulders bare the weight of the world. Make fun of me, I can take it but let me say something back to you . What do I get someone who flips out. Don't listen to my answers, listens to that person over there who has no idea, WHy not me? I know the answer, you just throw me to the wolves. That's ok. I'll show you all! I do need a shoulder to lean on, intimacy, love, someone just to listen. I thank you for what you've done and willl do. But I've been struck down by your words or lack of.

Who am I? Who am I? I'm the one who will bare the thorns. This is what I've been doing my whole life. Can you tell me when did I cross this line.