Wow, my longest post yet! It's all over the place

I'm illegal, I'm illegal. Still working though. The base is busy with big inspections, especially were I work because we're trying to be 'The Best store.' Instead of having 2 days left to work, I've been asked to stay a few more days. Hopefully I can keep my sanity. Whatever I have 3 weeks until I leave, packing is going to really suck! I'm pretty busy when I get home camp is going to atart right away and I'll still be suffering jet lag. I planned it this way, I guess.

I'm real close to going veggie, slicing meat at work makes me very nauseated. I eat alot of meat also. I can't wait to go home my eating habits are easier to control. I'll be cooking at camp again and eating at claire's moms. Oh gosh Loran makes the best food. I'm so excited, I can't wait for the organics again, they just taste so much better, very expensive but worth it. I can buy my own food and cook it, I don't know where at since I'll be homeless in a sense. Well only on weekends and after camp ends.

I need to go to college my sentences are terrible, vocabulary has shrank and well, it's time to start again. Well community college, I can't waste money on a university yet. I must conatact my dad maybe he's willing to fill out my FAFSA now. Who knows, I should really call him it has been a long time. Like 2 years or so, I wonder how his church is doing. Everytime we talk it's about god, you should come to church or help with this. He never ask, how are you doing. I think I've dealt with a lot of my father issues, I glad I grew up with him though, he did teach me alot. Now my mom I love her very much but it seems she's on drugs again. It makes me very sad, she could of had so much more especially if I wasn't born but I can't dwell on that. She made her decisons. I worry, I guess not enough to keep in contact with her often. I actually find it hard to keep in touch with lots of folks especially being away. Being here in Japan is actually the most contact I've had with friends and family. Well not enough with some like my parents. I know I'm so much like my mother and father, the 2 people who least know me.

Best wishes to you mother in cali and daddy may someday we listen to each other, hope you and linda haven't given me sibling I don't know about. That would be weird, I already have a 3 half-sibling from my mom and one I'm semi-close with. We all have different father, very gross! I'm the oldest, than my sis monica 15, my brother Bobby 6 and little sis Nicole who is 2. I named my sis Monica, she's cool, very driven. She lives here in Japan with my relatives. Being here has taught me how important my family is because I've always kinda been a loner. I still am ,hence, Stand Alone Complex, I haven't came out to them, they're kinda actually homophobic. Oh well, I will when I'm ready and they're somewhat ready. Yeah, I just went all over the place so later. PEACE!