Lonely road

I have so much pent up aggression going on right now. I gotta get out of here. I feel so trapped. My family is great and they do things a lot different than me. Especially spirituality, I more like the energy,chi, the creator, everything that surrounds, has a aura. We are all tied together, in this universe. I'm very open-minded, yes I do judge ,maybe, sometimes to much. I even judge myself maybe I should do that a little more, but dang my relative are quite closed-minded. I don't get how they can be? My little cousins(13,15) have lived over seas all their life. They are not interested in the world, don't care about the environment, and have no clue what the real world is like.

Yeah, I realize they have different interest and grew up totally different but some of this stuff I think all humans should care about.

It has been a a great experience coming over and visiting them. This trip has let me figure out, why I have been running for so long. I've been letting myself settle for inadequate things. That it's ok to be scared of growing up, that my life will be great I just have to put the fire I have, into something useful. I'm totally a pasisve-aggressive person I need to find a outlet, not just find one but take action and get involved more. I'm just venting now. Gosh, I know what i got to do. I've always tried to hold it back by destiny but it's going to happening, it's actually happening now, I just got to let go. It's a lonely road I put myself on, now I'm beginning to open up, letting folks reach my heart. Giving them a piece of me.